{"id":34,"date":"2013-08-18T12:44:00","date_gmt":"2013-08-18T12:44:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.tropigalia.net\/2013\/08\/18\/ill-bring-back-the-goods-self-bread-winner-space-lady-champ\/"},"modified":"2023-05-25T22:49:23","modified_gmt":"2023-05-26T03:49:23","slug":"ill-bring-back-the-goods-self-bread-winner-space-lady-champ","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.tropigalia.net\/?p=34","title":{"rendered":"I’ll Bring Back the Goods: Self-Bread Winner Space Lady Champ"},"content":{"rendered":"
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the question isn\u2019t \u201chow do i become more confident\/less self-conscious”. you have to let go of the confidence\/self-esteem model completely to begin with, it is totalizing and self-effacing. a more interesting question is \u201cwhat do i desire?\u201d \u201cwhat can i live through?\u201d<\/a><\/p><\/blockquote>\n

I just finished a 24+ page single-spaced academic paper. Now that I know that I’m capable of writing seminar papers, I feel much much better about pursuing graduate study than I was before writing. It’s very nice seeing what we “wish” or “want” be achieved by “doing.” As such, the quote above is reflective of that, and reinforces my current mentality.<\/div>\n
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As of late, I’ve realized that I am again hitting a limit with certain things: jokes people tell, other people’s company, what I’m willing to put myself into. In the past, I would feel somewhat upset that I wasn’t into going out to bars and drinking or dancing, or that I couldn’t indulge in “typical college social behavior.” But now that I have a solid social circle, stuff that I want to be involved in, and coursework that is fulfilling to me, worrying about whether I’m a freak or w\/e is a waste of my time.<\/div>\n
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The goal right now is not to waste my time, ever. You could also call this purposeful living.<\/div>\n
The ultimate goal is to become the equivalent of a space babe heroine.<\/div>\n
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Space Babe Heroine<\/a> is the following:<\/div>\n
Femme.<\/div>\n
Strong, physically and mentally.<\/div>\n
Resilient.<\/div>\n
Active and assertive.<\/div>\n
Sensual.<\/div>\n
Forward thinking.<\/div>\n
Ridiculous and kitsch.<\/div>\n
Never gives up.<\/div>\n
Asks for help.<\/div>\n
Loves very deeply.<\/div>\n
And wears a uniform.<\/div>\n
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I’m embracing organization now, so I bought tons of folders and a white board and planner. I have a lot to achieve and do this by the end of the year. The soundtrack to my mindset is Homogenic<\/em> by Bj\u00f6rk (without the gross cover photo).<\/div>\n
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the question isn\u2019t \u201chow do i become more confident\/less self-conscious”. you have to let go of the confidence\/self-esteem model completely to begin with, it is totalizing and self-effacing. a more interesting question is \u201cwhat do i desire?\u201d \u201cwhat can i live through?\u201d I just finished a 24+ page single-spaced academic paper. Now that I know …<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[34,3],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-34","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-compact-fuku","category-updates"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.tropigalia.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/34","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.tropigalia.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.tropigalia.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.tropigalia.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.tropigalia.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=34"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/www.tropigalia.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/34\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":678,"href":"https:\/\/www.tropigalia.net\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/34\/revisions\/678"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.tropigalia.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=34"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.tropigalia.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=34"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.tropigalia.net\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=34"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}